Need to vent a little otherwise i am gonna go crazy!!! So my dad called the other day, i rarely speak to him. we never had a really good relationship and i now know that we never will. Anyway...so he called the other day just to tell me that having this baby was a mistake and that obviously i didn't think about what i was doing and didn't consider my husband and how i have now ruined his life by getting pregnant....i told him that it was enough that i wasn't feeling well and the last thing that i need at the moment is to talk to him, and he proceeded to make it known how he felt and how i was stupid for not taking care of myself and how i am bringing a child into this world when i have health issues.....i let him know that i wasn't having health issues and that i was pregnant and my body was just not handling it very well. I really wanted to say a lot more to him and let him know how i will at least be a loving parent and treat my child the way he/she deserves to be treated, but i felt that knowing my dad had just lost his mother i better be the bigger person this time. Cuz i know that when he deserves to be told that he is a bad parent i am the first one to tell him. I even told him the night before my wedding that i did not want him at my wedding and he didn't deserve to share that happy moment with the rest of my family and friends. And he still showed up but i just kept my mouth shut cuz our arguing had really started affecting my sister. My sister just turned 17 and i really can't wait till next year when she can move out of his house. But anyway....since that phone call with him i have really been feeling like shit so i felt the need to vent....i think that it is cuz i try not to tell him how i feel so i think about what i wanted to tell him and it drives me crazy cuz afterwards i really wish i had told him off....i was actually considering calling him today and telling him off but i figured if i at least wrote out how i felt i would feel a little better and as weak as i am talking to him would probably make me feel worse at this moment.
posted by O'C Mama | 4:59 PM
2 Comments:
Having a baby is the most wonderful thing that will ever happen to you. I know my son is so excited and believes it is the greatest gift you can ever give him second only to asking him to marry you. You make him the happiest I have ever known him and you two are going to be the greatest parents. Do not let anything get you down just keep thinking about the first time you hold your new baby in your arms and press your check up close to his/her forehead. It is a feeling that cannot be described just trust me that nothing will ever compete with that feeling ever again. I hope you get a break with being sick you sure deserve it. Thank you for going through this and know that you are loved unconditionally. We are always here for you if you ever need anything
Family Forever
You need to ignore what others say especially those who do not love and understand you...you and S are going to be unbelievable parents and love that baby to the end of the earth...those of us who did not feel loved as children love our own children I think more than other people and I know that will be the case with you. It is hard to deal with when you are feeling so lousey and ill and I suggest that you do not answer the phone or let anyone get to you. You have to take care of yourself and the baby and just be calm and soon when you are feeling better you will be able to be finally fully of happiness and joy at the pregnancy. I had four children and they all might have not be planned the way we would have liked...but we loved each one and time has a way of making all things work...trust me on this one...there will be a light at the end of the tunnel...you do not need to worry about money, work or others who want to make you upset...you just have to concentrate on the love of your husband and the little of bundle that will be the light of your lives...we love you and if you need me for anything just call...love you my daughter....
Post a Comment
<< Home